Wanting To Die Saved My Life

In my 20’s, after my diagnosis of borderline personality disorder, I tried to cope the old fashioned way – the way everyone without a mental illness is told to get a handle on themselves again. I believed in the hype of exercise and eat right and all your troubles will melt away into a puddle of endorphins and selfies. To me, the basis of a good life was to have a good job, get married, go out on the weekends. Smile.

Everything will be okay if you just pretend it’s all okay.

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One Today!

Can you believe it?

Cross Words Not Wires is one today!

One whole year ☝🏻

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It’s been such an eventful year for me in every way, and this blog has been one of the most amazing things I’ve ever done.

It’s been such an incredible journey so far and has helped me immensely.

The fact that people have told me my work has helped them in some way is just mind blowing and means more than anything to me.

I look forward to the future of this blog and promise to pull my all into it for as long as it continues to help people.

Thank you so much to everyone for their support, especially my family, friends and incredible wife💙

BPD AWARENESS MONTH

MAY IS BPD AWARENESS MONTH

All of mental illnesses have stigma attached to them, but my personal experience is with my personality disorder.

The word ‘personality’ immediately puts people on the back foot as they conjure up exaggerated images from the media.

But here is the truth…

People with borderline personality disorder are fighters.

We survive everyday as we are overrun with unwanted emotions and thoughts.

We battle to find a sense of identity and hold on to it at all costs.

We are loyal and loving and feel any hurt we cause tenfold.

We’re not manipulative, dangerous or dramatic – we are simply misunderstood.

We are entitled to help, patience, understanding and recovery.

We are deserving, and those who stick around long enough to find that out are repayed with a love like no other.

I will continue to fight for mine and everyone else’s right to be heard, helped and not judged – this and every other month 💙

Surviving Smother’s Day When You Don’t Have A Mother

Like any holiday on the calendar, if you’re not a fan of it you’ll still more than likely have to deal with it being shoved in your face in every way possible. Mother’s Day is no different…

Whether you’ve lost your mother, have a troubling relationship or no relationship at all, Mother’s Day can be triggering as hell. I know it is for me. I lost my mother to her mental health 6 years ago and every year seeing the countless adverts and messages of how special mothers are is like a knife in the heart every time.

Over the years I’ve learned one or two things to help. Nothing will ever truly take the pain away, whatever’s happened, but here’s a tip or two to a) help you along the way and b) let you know you’re not alone.

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